Monday, April 6, 2009

Dear Daddy 3/28/05

You was there for the first five years then yo ass disappeared, in and out jail and my life only saw you like once or twice, never did forget about them doll houses you promised me. calming things you ain't never seen, use to wish u was here; but now i dnt even care, if you never came back i wouldn't pass a tear, where was you when i need you most? The number one question that cant seem to be spoke.


Out spoken Heart.. <3

Me

The original plus size Barbie double digit with more curves then the average one of a kind chick unique with her every switch sweet as chocolate hot as the summers sun gorgeous, diva is what they call her, Umeko is her first name she a go getter doesn’t care what people think cause beauty comes in all sizes not just 0-3. selfish an impatient but never insecure indentpened she stands on her own Pump hells born to stand out, the fruit loop in a world of cheerios. Life is a show an she’s then main attraction getting her hair down is a habit; stay in the illest fashion live with no regrets but learn from every life lesson sometimes wild but always remain classy bad girl attitude with good girl habits never perfect nor do she claim to be opinionated, brave, strong & glamorous . too optimistic to be fearful an too determined to be defeated never catch her slipping she to fly to fall may seem quite but always got something to say confidence is the glue to hold it all together chubby waist cute face but don’t let it fool you she a str8 boss queen of all kings GREATEST CREATION. PROUD OF HERSLEF, SHE RESPECTS HERSLEF, SHE IS AWARE OF WHO SHE IS, SHE NEITHER SEEKS DEFINITION FROM THE PERSON SHE IS WITH NOR DOES SHE EXPECT THEM TO.

0ut spoken Heart.. <3

I Dnt know what im suppose to do when all I can do I think about you. Your like a dream come true, no matter what life do my feelings will stay true. I would never replace you because from every moment of everyday not even distances could keep me away.



You’re all I need in my life, what’s goes wrong you make right, no matter what you’re by my side, and it took this long to realize, life wont seem to go with out you. So I gotta hold on tight. Because from every moment of everyday not even distances could keep me away.




0ut spoken Heart.. <3

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Free

No matter what you do i cant seem to let you go, no matter how loud i scream it never got to you, what will it take? how hard must this be? no matter how far i go your still huntin me. i wish i was free.
just leave me and take all the pain and dnt forget the memories we shared over the 3 years.. dnt look back cause this time i wont sit an wait..the pass is the pass and now im ready to move on i wished i was free but i been free since 1988



0ut spoken Heart.. <3

HiM

It was yesterday wen you told me how much you cared, now today you sayin you got me replaceddddd what a shame what ah shame.. once again I fell for your bullshit..so tired of my heart keep hurtin Its Crazy how you can love some one so much and no matter what u do its never good enough. But you can’t blame anyone but you’re self when you’re the one who stuck around in the first place. When some one has your heart its not that easy to let them go; So true, and in your mind you know maybe just maybe its for the best, Yet the place where your heart use to be is crying out “Hell Naw you aint learned from lesson 1 and 2? ” Even when he said he was done.. He never handed my heart back. Can’t believe he moved on just like that, like I wasn’t shit. Walked away and was quick to hop on another Chick. All the hurt he did i even tho about taken him back... I can’t help it I just loved him like that. Maybe one day he'll realize how much i cared. Why i couldnt shake him? FUCK! Every day I wish I could just go back. How do you say you love a person and treat them like crap? I opened my world to him; better yet I gave him my soul.i was once hooked like a flapin fish but day by day im slowly getin over HiM..